Out Of Office

~~ Out of Action Message ~~

Thank you for visiting my blog, please be advised that I will be out of the office from 17 February thru 3 March due to a Far East biz trip. In case of emergency you can still contact me on the usual number :)) Hopefully I will be back in action on 5 March. Till then, be good and I’ll be missing all of you!

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Now and Forever

The reason it hurts so much to separate

is because our souls are connected…

Setiap hari adalah hari Valentine

See my previous post “Every day is a Valentine’s day”, dated 13 february 2006.

Suatu kebiasaan kita untuk selalu membuktikan cinta kita pada orang yang mengasihi dan kita kasihi di hari Valentine, seperti lewat hadiah, makan malam romantis, kata-kata cinta yang memabukkan, mawar merah 7 lusin, atau apa saja. Sebenarnya Valentine´s Day itu adalah hari biasa. Hanya sehari dalam setahun.

Bukankah sebenarnya menyedihkan menunggu satu hari dalam setahun hanya untuk menyatakan dan mendapatkan pernyataan cinta kasih? Bagaimana dengan 364 hari lainnya?

Bukankah mendapat kecupan selamat pagi disertai dengan senyum manis merupakan hadiah yang indah? Bukankah, sepiring nasi goreng yang dibuat oleh ibu, istri atau kekasih dengan penuh sayang merupakan berkat? Bukankah, pujian yang diberikan teman merupakan hal yang manis?

Kadang, hadiah Valentine yang sesungguhnya datang bukan berupa wanginya parfum yang kita dapatkan, atau romantisnya makan malam bersama kekasih, melainkan berupa hal-hal kecil yang sudah menjadi kebiasaan, yang sebenarnya bagi banyak orang lainnya merupakan hal langka yang didambakan.

Tentu saja, merayakan hari Valentine bukan suatu hal yang salah. Tapi jangan sampai kita lupa bahwa setiap hari bisa menjadi hari Valentine...

Untuk yang merayakan.. “Selamat Hari Valentine 2007”...

A Promise for a New Beginning

When she spoke to him after a long time, she knew he was a changed person. She didn’t hate him for the person he had become. She hated herself for transforming a sweet caring fun person into the cold mechanical human being.

She remembered the past. The phone conversations. The few short meetings… a budding friendship. As time went by, he professed his love for her. She liked him, immensely. But was she ready for love? Both of them nursed a broken heart. Was the comfort of their friendship and the realization of love the beginning to the end of the shadows of fear, insecurity and pain that lurked in their hearts?

She didn’t want to be hurt again. Not another relationship to turn bitter over time. She didn’t trust her luck. The stars ruling her destiny have always been cruel. She sometimes felt romance was never written for her…

He was hurt. Her decision pained him. But she thought this pain would be short-lived and eventually forgotten rather than bitter and broken relationships. Maybe it was just infatuation mistaken for love. But she let him down. She wasn’t even a true friend. She moved away from him. Both in physical and emotional space. She never kept in touch.

Time passed. Almost three years. They were back again in the same city. But he had changed. He was cold and cynical. The warmth, the sweetness, the care and everything that made him special was lost. She hardly recognized this person.

His outburst made her realize how much he had loved her deeply. She had lost the one person who would have loved her truly. Only if she had chosen him, but only if…

He can’t say that she didn’t care. She did care, maybe too much. She thought the decision was the best for if at all the relationship didn’t have a future. She would be hurt, but most importantly he would be too. She never wanted to see him hurt again.

He doesn’t know that she still has the fragrance packets he gave her. He doesn’t know that she still remembers when he meet and looked extremely handsome in his black T-shirt and jeans. He doesn’t know that she still remembers how upset he was, and how they spoke for hours… many memories…

But still… the mistake was hers. But she is not going to watch her friend just waste away his life in meaningless nothings. She wanted that him back. It didn’t matter if he didn’t love her anymore. She was a callous friend. She wronged him. She doesn’t deserve his love. But it is her responsibility to help him rediscover himself. And she was determined to do it. It didn’t matter if he cursed her for interfering in his life. No amount of anger, bitterness mattered. She was not going to relent. She was not going to leave him the way he was. In the world of pretenses he has weaved for himself.

He finally said… “I shall try… it is not going to be easy and it takes time”…

She agreed and she waits for his promise of a new beginning to be fulfilled…

“Never lose Hope if the Beloved pushes you away. If He shuts the door on you, don't go. Be patient and wait! It is your patience that will draw Him back!”

Message in a Bottle

I still miss you…
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Some messages are too clear to miss…

Tonight I have just received such a message.

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Remembering

No matter the difference in sands beneath our feet…
I whisper your name….. and you are with me in the worlds of your words left behind…

The Last Dance

If I had known our last dance would be our very last dance...

Would I’ve stepped a little closer. Would I’ve stayed for one more song...

Thoughts

She was numb. As if the heart has lost its warmth and glow and her insane mind rambled on.

She said… “Please don’t hurt me. Meet me and I want to see you look in my eyes and say that you love me. You won’t be able to do it because deep inside your heart, you do love me at least to a miniscule of a measure”.

Did you for a moment think of the pain I have suffered? It was not easy being far away from you. It was not easy to love someone whom one has never seen yet whom the heart loved madly.

Did you realize… to me you have become one of the reasons I exist and you were asking me to let go of my life yet find a reason to live. You never seen the tears, the pain on my face, the love I have for you and yet you chose to hurt me. It was easy to hurt me than take my hand. It was easy to let me suffer than let others.

Why? Was it because I thought about your happiness and chose to take the pains? Was it because I was not selfish? Was it because I never forced you to love for it felt that I would be insulting my love for you? Was it because I let you take your own time while I gathered the strength to wait?

He asked her… “Why am I doing this to you…?”

Well seek the answer for I cannot find a valid answer…

I cannot find a valid answer why should I stop waiting for you. Till now you haven’t given me a valid reason. And even if you do, why should I stop loving you? And why should I stop feeling in the far corner of my heart that one day you shall come, one day you shall be mine?

And why should you not love me, can you think of one reason? No, you cannot. No one can. So why shouldn’t I wait for that day to arrive?

Nobody wants to be lonely.

So why… why don’t you let me love you?…

My heart weeps in sadness and asks you every moment… “Will you be mine forever?”…

“Time is too slow for those who wait, too swift for those who fear, too long for those who grieve, too short for those who rejoice, but for those who LOVE, time is eternity…”

~~ Henry Van Dyke