In spite of all your ignorance of my emotions…
I want to be your Guardian Angel…
Looking out for you with my every passing breath.
I will be like the sponge absorbing your pains and giving you the chance to smile. I will hold you when you stumble in pain and your footsteps pause in confusion. I would be your shadow, keep in step with you as you walk through the life. Guiding you, if you arrive at crossroads, make your choice and banish the worries.
Yet… I am human and can err... If I have hurt you, if because of my foolishness and misunderstandings you have shed a tear, please punish me but don’t let go of me.
But then… you chose to turn away from me not because you wanted to but because you felt… you had no choice. Yet I realize the pain in your heart. Maybe that is why I am still holding your fingers, still being your shadow, still walking with you, still waiting for your return. You choose to walk past me. Making me invisible in your eyes. I can silently suffer that pain because I know it hurts you too…
Let me live each moment of this blessed life… where my heart beats for you…
3 comments:
Oh my...that's so apt...its lik ur speaking my heart out 2 my lover...
so well written and well put John! thank u!
take care.
~luv,deepthy.
“Life with the one who loved you with your bad shoes, life with the one who craved your smile, life with the one who promised would be with you till death is just like a perfect dream!!! But isn’t it sad that it will only be a dream???”
I’m so sorry about your lover. Sometimes you feel like a beggar, just waiting for scraps, any whatsoever, to be thrown at your feet.
What hurts most, when you can’t fight for that one thing that would make you happy....
If I could, I shouldn’t omit to cheer up you. Take care my dear.
Yours..
JOHN
Hi John,
I wish i had read your comment earlier...i'd have felt so less lonelier... but it's still as effective...
Yes it was better than anything i had ever dreamed of...the worse part being that now i can't dream of anything higher...or better than him.
it was worse on his bday..and perfectly one year later the next day, as i was full of nostalgia about how he'd been with me, i saw him for the first time in 8-9 months... think i fell in love again!!! :(
i think i feel transformed by that vision...now i feel sorry for him,as he vents out hatred on me... i know i love him..and have finally come to do so, with all the hatred he has to give me...
i hope someday i can move on...and find the will to fall in love again...
then i'll write 'happy' posts like you do...:) though i'll still be your fan...that'll never change.
thank u John...its your wonderful Creativity that brings me tremendous hope, long after the sunset, into a tired night...
take care...i'll be reading the rest of your posts that i missed out on...
~luv, deepthy.
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