Thoughts

She was numb. As if the heart has lost its warmth and glow and her insane mind rambled on.

She said… “Please don’t hurt me. Meet me and I want to see you look in my eyes and say that you love me. You won’t be able to do it because deep inside your heart, you do love me at least to a miniscule of a measure”.

Did you for a moment think of the pain I have suffered? It was not easy being far away from you. It was not easy to love someone whom one has never seen yet whom the heart loved madly.

Did you realize… to me you have become one of the reasons I exist and you were asking me to let go of my life yet find a reason to live. You never seen the tears, the pain on my face, the love I have for you and yet you chose to hurt me. It was easy to hurt me than take my hand. It was easy to let me suffer than let others.

Why? Was it because I thought about your happiness and chose to take the pains? Was it because I was not selfish? Was it because I never forced you to love for it felt that I would be insulting my love for you? Was it because I let you take your own time while I gathered the strength to wait?

He asked her… “Why am I doing this to you…?”

Well seek the answer for I cannot find a valid answer…

I cannot find a valid answer why should I stop waiting for you. Till now you haven’t given me a valid reason. And even if you do, why should I stop loving you? And why should I stop feeling in the far corner of my heart that one day you shall come, one day you shall be mine?

And why should you not love me, can you think of one reason? No, you cannot. No one can. So why shouldn’t I wait for that day to arrive?

Nobody wants to be lonely.

So why… why don’t you let me love you?…

My heart weeps in sadness and asks you every moment… “Will you be mine forever?”…

“Time is too slow for those who wait, too swift for those who fear, too long for those who grieve, too short for those who rejoice, but for those who LOVE, time is eternity…”

~~ Henry Van Dyke