The End of A Beautiful Year

I can’t believe it. The year of 2007 is coming quickly to an end. And no one will ever be able to change what happened in it. It’s always fun to change history, but you can’t go back and change it. Thankfully this year has been passed from a personal perspective, with many beautiful moments and sweet memories.

Now I’m off to get ready to ring in the New Year with my family and a lot of friends. Tomorrow it will be a new day and a new year, and I wish all of you the best in 2008! But more important, there is a world, one world that we have lend, the same moon which shares his light and the same air that we have breathe. I will try to remember that the days and years following are the real gift...

A Winter’s Tale

I look out the window, a white frost like snow blanket covering the trees today. The days are colder now. My memories are warm and clear. I wish I was close enough to come sit by your fire, or you sit by mine. I feel us building a cocoon of warmth against the cold of winter. Our wave of our warmth persists and on a distant world. Your longing makes me long too. We would stay up half the night, sharing love. Just like we did before. Just like I imagine it did. Just as I picture it. You’re the drawing. I watch and I can see your colors are bright, are clear, are beautiful. It was only a winter’s tale, just another winter’s tale..

“Some memories never multiply, but new ones leave their trace....”


A Winter’s Tale
(Sung by: Queen)

It’s winter-fall
Red skies are gleaming - oh -
Sea gulls are flying over
Swans are floatin’ by
Smoking chimney-tops
Am I dreaming
Am I dreaming...?

The nights draw in
There's silky moon up in the sky - yeah -
Children are fantisising
Grown-ups are standin’ by
What a super feeling
Am I dreaming
Am I dreaming...?
woh-woh-woh-woh

(draming)
So quiet and peaceful
Tranquil and blissful
There’s a kind of magic in the air
What a truly magnificent view
A breathtaking scene

With the dreams of the world
In the palm of your hand

(draming)
A cosy fireside chat
A little this, a little that
Sound of merry laughter skippin’ by
Gentle rain beatin’ on my face
What an extraordinary place!
And the dream of the child
Is the hope of the man

It’s all so beautiful
Like a landscape painting in the sky - yeah -
Mountains are zoomin’ higher - mm -
Little girls scream an’ cry
My world is spinnin’ and spinnin’ and spinnin’
It’s unbelievable
Sends me reeling
Am I dreaming...
Am I dreaming...?
Oooh – it’ a bliss.

Without You

Looking back, back in time when you were here by my side. I hear a symphony, a tender melody that pushing me closer and closer to your heart. You’ve given me a true love and every day I thank you for that feelings. It’s a dream that I’ve come so far. The ups and downs were there. Friends keep telling me that this crazy loving feeling, soon it’s gonna pass.

Day by day it’s getting stronger than before. Suddenly, it all changed. You were not here, and it feels so strange. This loneliness there ain’t no hiding place. Nights get longer and colder. I can’t take another night anymore to live without you.



Without You
(Sung by: Mariah Carey)

No, I can’t forget this evening
Or your face as you were leaving
But I guess that’s just the way the story goes
You always smile but in your eyes your sorrow shows
Yes, it shows

No, I can’t forget tomorrorow
When I think of all my sorrows
When I had you there but then I let you go
And now it’s only fair that I should let you know
What you should know

I can’t live if living is without you
I can't live, I can’t give any more
Can’t live if living is without you
I can’t give, I can’t give any more

No, I can’t forget this evening
Or your face as you were leaving
But I guess that’s just the way the story goes
You always smile but in your eyes your sorrow shows
Yes, it shows

Can’t live if living is without you
I can’t live, I can’t give anymore
I can’t live if living is without you
Can’t live, I can’t give anymore
(Living is without you)

Careless Whisper

They were standing at sea beach. The darkness was embedded everywhere, there was no crowd. They were standing so close that they were getting to hear each other’s breathing. He looked at her for the last time and deciphering her eyes, what her eyes were trying to say.

An unexpected event was waiting for him. He held her hand and whispered ..“Listen, I know what you’re feeling now. I always tried to say I am not good but not too bad. I didn’t want to ruin your life. You cared for me and I think you still do. I never forget it. But remember, I always told you not to sacrifice like this because world doesn’t judge how much you cared for someone. It judge how much you have achieved. I promised you to keep contact with you whole life but I think it will affect our personal life. Stay always happy! Bye my beloved!..”

A silent cry was emerging from her heart. She didn’t want to stop him. Tears were dropping down one by one. She looked at the sea, waves were like dancing in front of her. The wind was blowing strongly. A careless whisper it reaches her mind that repeats until faded away.


Careless Whisper
(Sung by: George Michael)

Time can never mend the careless whispers of a good friend
To the heart and mind, ignorance is kind
there’s no comfort in the truth
pain is all you'll find

Should’ve known better

I feel so unsure
as I take your hand and lead you to the dance floor
as the music dies, something in your eyes
calls to mind the silver screen
and all its sad good-byes

I’m never gonna dance again
guilty feet have got no rhythm
though it’s easy to pretend
I know you’re not a fool

Should’ve known better than to cheat a friend
and waste the chance that I’ve been given
so I’m never gonna dance again
the way I danced with you

Time can never mend
the careless whispers of a good friend
to the heart and mind
ignorance is kind
there’s no comfort in the truth
pain is all you’ll find

I’m never gonna dance again
guilty feet have got no rhythm
though it’s easy to pretend
I know you’re not a fool

Should’ve known better than to cheat a friend
and waste this chance that I’ve been given
so I’m never gonna dance again
the way I danced with you

Never without your love

Tonight the music seems so loud
I wish that we could lose this crowd
Maybe it’s better this way
We’d hurt each other with the things we’d want to say

We could have been so good together
We could have lived this dance forever
But noone’s gonna dance with me
Please stay

And I’m never gonna dance again
guilty feet have got no rhythm
though it’s easy to pretend
I know you’re not a fool

Should’ve known better than to cheat a friend
and waste the chance that I've been given
so I’m never gonna dance again
the way I danced with you

(Now that you’re gone) Now that you’re gone
(Now that you’re gone) What I did’s so wrong
that you had to leave me alone

On My Own

Sometimes I walk alone at night, when everybody else is sleeping. When I lose my way I close my eyes and pretending she is beside me. When the night is over she is gone and the river is just a river.

And now I’m all alone again, nowhere to go no one to turn to. I’m not afraid to try it on my own and I’ll live my life the way I feel no matter what I’m gonna keep it real you know.


On My Own
Sung by: Patti LaBelle and Michael McDonald

So many times
Said it was forever
Said our love would always be true
Something in my heart always knew
I’d be lying here beside you
On my own
On my own
On my own

So many promises never should be spoken
Now I know what loving you cost
Now we’re up to talking divorce
And we weren’t even married
On my own
Once again now
One more time
By myself

No one said it was easy
But it once was so easy
Well I believed in love
Now here I stand
I wonder why

I’m on my own
Why did it end this way
On my own
This wasn’t how it was supposed to be
On my own
I wish that we could do it all again

So many times
I know I should have told you
Losing you it cut like a knife
You walked out and there went my life
I don’t want to live without you
On my own
On my own
On my own
Chorus Repeat

This wasn’t how it was supposed to end
I wish that we could do it all again
I never dreamed I’d spend one night alone
On my own, I’ve got to find where I belong again
I’ve got to learn how to be strong again
I never dreamed I’d spend one night alone
By myself by myself
I’ve got to find out what was mine again
My heart is saying that it’s my time again
And I have faith that I will shine again
I have faith in me
On my own
On my own
On my own

Lost

I thought I lost you somewhere,
but you were never really ever there at all.
I wanna run, but only far enough to make you miss me.

If you really love someone set her free,
If she comes back, she’s meant to be,
If she doesn’t, she never was...


Lost
(Sung by Michael Bublé)

I can’t believe it’ over
I watched the whole thing fall
And I never saw the writing that was on the wall
If I’d only knew
The days were slipping past
That the good things never last
That you were crying

Summer turned to winter
And the snow it turned to rain
And the rain turned into tears upon your face
I hardly recognized the girl you are today
And god I hope it’s not too late
It’s not too late

’Cause you are not alone
I’m always there with you
And we’ll get lost together
Till the light comes pouring through
’Cause when you feel like you’re done
And the darkness has won
Babe, you’re not lost
When your worlds crashing down
And you can't bear the thought
I said, babe, you’re not lost

Life can show no mercy
It can tear your soul apart
It can make you feel like you’ve gone crazy
But you’re not
Things have seem to changed
There’s one thing that’s still the same
In my heart you have remained
And we can fly fly fly away

’Cause you are not alone
And I am there with you
And we’ll get lost together
Till the light comes pouring through
’Cause when you feel like you're done
And the darkness has won
Babe, you’re not lost
When the worlds crashing down
And you can not bear to crawl
I said, baby, you’re not lost
I said, baby, you’re not lost
I said, baby, you’re not lost
I said, baby, you’re not lost

The Look of Love

Ever notice that there are things you will do that make perfect sense? I liked the idea that there are hundreds of ways to prove your love, yet on the scale of time, of eternity. They can last a lifetime or just a fraction of a second.

If you really want to prove that you love a woman, you should do something special for her. Something that nobody would do for her, and something that she will never forget. Making the woman you love feel like the most special person in the world. Women are easily flattered if you have the right things to say.

The look of love is saying so much more than just words could ever say...

A Walk to Remember

The wind blowing as we walked towards the beach. Her hand was warm and I locked my fingers and she leaned close to me. We were silent, she gestures to sit on the sand.

I saw the light of the moon reflecting in her eyes. My thoughts were wrapped in a cloud that floated lazily in my mind. It seemed things moved in slow motion to me. I turned to look at her face. I moved my face close to her and placed my lips and kissed her. I felt the rhythm of the sea in synchronous with the rhythm of our hearts.

The moon was still bright, we got up and started to walk to the hotel. In the dark path shaded by a canopy of bouggainvilea shrubs, I saw the light coming from the window. I turned to face her. “Let’s make this night forever... forever and ever...” I can only see her silhouette, but not her eyes. She was trying to tell me something, but I didn’t know what it was, so I just stood there, holding her hand...

Fantasy

Sometimes I fall asleep alone at night, dreaming of you on the moon. The sound of your voice, the pleasure of your laughter and my dreams are sweeter, my sleep richer, in its memory.

My world is woven with threads of you...

This Ain’t Gonna Work

I’ve seen nights without sleep, days without daylight. These memories I keep, won’t keep me warm at night. The coldest part is the heart we share. It’s breaking apart and you’re not even here to say things will get better.

We could have been happy but sometimes.. when you hold out for everything, you walk away with nothing…


THIS AIN’T GONNA WORK
(Sung by: Alain Clark)

No sign of improving
We’re like a song that just ain’t groovin’
Oh, the harder we try
The more it seems that it’s just not right

Ooh baby, this ain’t gonna work
Baby baby, this ain’t gonna work
Ooh baby, this ain’t gonna work
baby baby, this ain’t gonna work

Girl we’ve got to make some changes
We share the same bed, but we’re living like strangers
Oh and sure we get by
But if it ain’t true, then we’re livin’, we are livin’ a lie girl

Ooh baby, this ain’t gonna work
Baby baby, this ain’t gonna work
Ooh baby, this ain’t gonna work
baby baby, this ain’t gonna work

Oh if it’s up to you and me then why aren’t we dancing
Oh I wish the powers that be would work in our way
But that ain’t like it is today

Yeah and I’m really trying to feel you girl
I really wanna want you baby
I’m not trying to leave you girl
But how am I gonna stay when

Ooh baby, this ain’t gonna work
Baby baby, this ain’t gonna work
Ooh baby, this ain’t gonna work
baby baby, this ain’t gonna work

Don’t wanna make you feel bad, but this ain’t gonna work

Me and my Virgo girl

She keeps her passions under a tight rein. Outwardly she may appear calm, sometimes even remote and unreachable, for the quintessential she has a serene, almost classic repose. Yet hers is one of the most conflicted signs.

Basically, she distrusts and is a little afraid of emotion. Because of this I may wonder if she is looks a bit cold. But she isn't. Her enormous capacity for loving will pour out, as from a rich treasury, once her emotions are unlocked. She particularly is often characterized as timid, evasive, reserved. This is also untrue. What she do have is self-possession, a sense of passion that is controlled by discipline.

My girl is a combination of sensuality and conservatism. As mostly other women she likes men, but she is very careful about allowing herself to become too involved with them. She fears being trapped into a long term living arrangement with the wrong man. Before she enters into a meaningful affair, she is careful to take note where the exit doors are. For her, falling in love can take a long time. She moves forward step by step, revealing the layers of her deep sensitivity, learning to trust.

She is discriminating. Rather than go out with a man who doesn’t interest her, she’ll stay home and watch a good movie. This does not mean that she thinks lovemaking is a poor substitute for a good movie. It’s just that she doesn’t mind waiting for me (the right man) to come along. I found out behind her cool facade a real woman waiting, warm and responsive. Meanwhile, her off-putting manner has served a useful purpose.

The real clue is that I know she believes in true love. When she truly loves, her inhibitions are never in control of her passions. She is not a woman I can take for granted. I must strive hard to win her, to please her, to fulfill her. If I can, I will have a partner who pays me back in lifelong dividends of love, loyalty, and happiness.

In addition to being a great relationship with her, I will probably have the kind of friendship that will last for years and years. Even if I don’t walk down the aisle together, I will share a common understanding that will transcend time and space. What better foundation could there be?

A Real Girl

So I’m back from “la luna de miel” and while I already miss my sweet lovely girl terribly. I missed her when I was away, as she is not only beautiful to look at, but she is my constant reminder of where “the love” is.

They say never to talk about whatever you have, and I usually don’t. This particular piece of words and ideas keep coming into my head, they’ll end up on paper.

I know nobody is perfect, but my beloved is a pretty sweet part of my life. She’s an amiable, sunny human being which digging her heels in and declaring “THIS IS ME!”...

It’s certainly implying that she never pretend to be something, you get what you see. She’s just a real girl and don’t need permission from nobody else to be herself. She’s not a little girl. She know exactly who she is...


Real Girl
(Sung by: Mutya Buena)

If I had one chance to
In my life again
I wouldn’t make no changes
Now or way back when (yeah)
And if everything turns out
The way I hope it goes
But I cant wait to find out
What it is that God knows

But I don’t wanna think about
What’s gonna come around for me
I’ll just take it day by day
‘Cause it’s the only way
To be the best that I can be

I never pretend to be something I’m not
You get what you see, when you see what I’ve got
We live in the real world, I’m just a real girl
I know exactly where I stand

And all I can do is be true to myself
I don’t need permission from nobody else
‘Cause this is the real world, I’m not a little girl
I know exactly who I am

And nothing’s ever perfect
There’s no guarantee
And if I knew the answers
It would put my mind at ease (no)
So I’ll just keep on going
The way I’ve gone so far
And maybe I’ll end up
Tryin’ to catch a fallin star (yeah)

But I don’t wanna think about
What’s gonna come around for me
I’ll just take it day by day
‘Cause it’s the only way
To be the best that I can be

I never pretend to be something I’m not
You get what you see, when you see what I’ve got
We live in the real world, I’m just a real girl
I know exactly where I stand

And all I can do is be true to myself
I don’t need permission from nobody else
‘Cause this is the real world, I’m not a little girl
I know exactly who I am

Baby this is who I am
Don’t need you to understand
‘Cause everything is right where it should be
It wont be long til you know about me,
‘Cause I don’t give a...
Even when I’m out of love
‘Cause everythings just how it should be
And it wont be long till you know about me

I never pretend to be something I’m not
You get what you see, when you see what I’ve got
We live in the real world, I’m just a real girl
I know exactly where I stand

And all I can do is be true to myself
I don’t need permission from nobody else
‘Cause this is the real world, I’m not a little girl
I know exactly who I am

I never pretend to be something I’m not
You get what you see, when you see what I’ve got
We live in the real world, I’m just a real girl
I know exactly where I stand

And all I can do is be true to myself
I don’t need permission from nobody else
‘Cause this is the real world, I’m not a little girl
I know exactly who I am

Pilihan atau Kesempatan

Ketika kita bertemu orang yang tepat untuk dicintai
Ketika kita berada di tempat pada saat yang tepat
Itulah kesempatan

Ketika engkau bertemu dengan seseorang yang membuatmu tertarik
Itu bukan pilihan itu kesempatan
Bertemu dalam suatu peristiwa bukanlah pilihan
Itupun adalah kesempatan

Bila engkau memutuskan untuk mencintai orang tersebut
Bahkan dengan segala kekurangannya
Itu bukan kesempatan, itu adalah pilihan

Ketika engkau memilih bersama dengan seseorang
walaupun apapun yang terjadi
Itu adalah pilihan

Bahkan ketika kau menyadari bahwa masih banyak orang lain
Yang lebih menarik, pandai, dan kaya daripada pasanganmu
dan Tetap engkau memilih untuk mencintainya
Itulah pilihan

Perasaan cinta, simpatik, tertarik
Datang bagai kesempatan pada kita
Tetapi cinta sejati yang abadi adalah pilihan
Pilihan yang kita lakukan

Nasib membawa kita bersama
Tetapi tetap bergantung pada kita
bagaimana membuat semuanya berhasil

Kita ada di dunia bukan untuk mencari seseorang
yang sempurna untuk dicintai
TETAPI untuk belajar mencintai orang
Yang tidak sempurna dengan cara yang
Sempurna.

”...Belahan jiwa tidak bisa dicari namun bisa diciptakan
Dia memang ada... rasakan karena dia ada dalam hatimu...”
Love you!!!...

Pertemuan part II

Sambungan dari Pertemuan part I - July 21, 2007

Esok harinya adalah hari istimewa, soalnya aku berdua dengan Tari rame-rame sudah janji untuk ketemu dengan teman-temanku Taa (aka Trazzy), Gita (aka Jenny) dengan teman, Tieka (aka Doweh), Nia (aka Xonyell), Iin dan Sandy. Dan juga teman-teman dari kekasihku seperti Heria, Rini, Jojo dengan teman (lupa namanya) dan Indah. Segalanya telah direncanakan dan diatur dengan sukses oleh kapten Iin dan anak buahnya.

Tak ada kata bangga yang berlebihan yang aku punya, kecuali satu syukur dan terima kasih atas keberadaan dan perhatian dari teman-teman lama dan teman-teman baru.

Untuk teman-teman yang gak bisa hadir karena kebetulan ada acara lain atau lagi gak libur seperti Ririn (aka Sekartaji), Neni (aka DD), Hera (aka Ashter) dan Rein (aka Trisula) aku dengan Tari ucapkan terima kasih juga untuk perhatian kalian!…

Untuk teman lama Lady (aka Bakul Ganja), yang aku lupa undang, mohon dimaafkan. Untuk teman baru Imut/Mumut (aka Vespa), terima kasih mau nemenin aku jalan-jalan bersama dengan Taa.

“Good friends must always hold hands, but true friends do not need to hold hands because they know the other hand will always be there…”

~~~~~

Pertemuan part I

Tak sedikit orang yang rajin chatting di Internet mendapatkan teman. Berawal dari sekedar ngobrol di chatroom, hubungan pertemanan itu pun bisa berlanjut ke hubungan yang lebih dekat, pacaran dan menjadi suami-istri.

Malam Minggu 7 Juli 2007, seperti kekasih yang sekian lama berpisah, aku sangat merindukan dengan kekasihku. Pertemuanku dengan idamanku itu berlangsung amat mesra. Kita bercanda dan bercengkrama bersama dengan penuh kasih sayang seperti layaknya sepasang suami-istri.

Ah, pendek kata segala yang ada pada dirinya mampu meraih segenap perasaan hatiku. Sehari semalam bersamanya bagaikan sejam aja yang cepat berlalu…

~~~~~

Menghitung hari

Ini bukan lagu, bukan menghitung hari lagunya Krisdayanti tapi tanggal 7 Juli 2007 adalah hari pertemuanku dengan kekasihku. Kejadian yang benar-benar sudah lama aku tunggu-tunggu. Menghitung hari, detik demi detik, menunggu itu kan menjemukantapi sekarang saatnya aku berhenti menghitung hari hampir tiba. Yang semuanya tadi hanya dalam kenangan lalu dan dalam impian akan jadi kenyataan.

Rasanya sudah tidak sabar menunggu hari itu datang, menunggu tangan kanan dan tangan kiriku bebas memelukmu erat, menjelajahi redupnya cahaya matamu, menjelajahi senyum manismu, menjelajahi kecantikan wajahmu, membelai lembut indah rambutmu membelai merah pipimu dan mengecup bibirmu.

Saat kita akan berkumpul lagi melepaskan rindu, selalu ada cerita tentang kemarin, tentang hari ini, tentang saat yang indah sekarang dan tentang nanti...

Change

There are many things in my life that I wish I could take back. Those were things done in the heat of passion, when my emotions were out of control. There are words I wished I hadn't spoken. One of the drawbacks of having instant communication is that I could ‘say’ things that aren’t what I really meant. Things I would never say to somebody’s face.

If I could turn back time, could I make things right? Or could a different song express my feelings? It’s a very hard question to answer, even if I could change the things that I have done, I cannot change who I am…


Change
(sung by Lisa Stansfield)

Chorus:

If I could change the way I live my life today

I wouldn’t change a single thing

’Cause if I changed my world into another place

I wouldn’t see your smiling face

Honey don’t you worry, there’s nothin’ to worry for

’Cause if I didn’t love you I wouldn’t be here now

And if I didn’t want you I would have turned around by now

You’ve got to believe me babe, believe that I love you so

’Cause if I didn’t love you I would have turned around

And if I didn’t want you, then I would want you out

This love, this love has filled me up

Ooh my love I’ll never give you up

’Cause I’ll always want your love

(Chorus)

If I could change the way I live my life today

I wouldn’t change a single thing

’Cause if I changed my world into another place

I wouldn’t see your smiling face

Believing is the answer, the answer to all your fears

When I first said I loved you, I went in for the kill

Now when I say I love you, I mean I always will

This love, this love has filled me up

Ooh my love I’ll never give you up

’Cause I’ll always want your love

(Chorus)

If I could change the way I live my life today

I wouldn’t change a single thing

(Chorus)
If I could change the way I live my life today

I wouldn’t change a single thing

’Cause if I changed my world into another place

I wouldn’t see your smiling face

You're My Everything

Call Me Irresponsible, album ketiga dari Michale Buble achirnya dirilis, tepatnya 1 Mei bulan kemarin. Single pertama yang dikeluarkan adalah “Everything”. Aaahhh, aku langsung senang begitu denger lagu ini, menenangkan hati banget. Apalagi sambil dengerin lagu ini dan ada orang tersayang disebelahku yang kupeluk mesra…

Musiknya ceria dan lagunya romantis banget. Aku tujukan kepada semua pecinta love song..

Everything
(Sung by: Michael Buble)

You’re a falling star, You’re the get away car.

You’re the line in the sand when I go too far.

You’re the swimming pool, on an August day.

And you’re the perfect thing to say.

And you play you’re coy, but it’s kinda cute.

Ah, When you smile at me you know exactly what you do.

Baby don’t pretend, that you don’t know it’s true.

Cause you can see it when I look at you.

[Chorus:]

And in this crazy life, and through these crazy times

It’s you, it’s you, You make me sing.

You’re every line, you’re every word, you’re everything.

You’re a carousel, you’re a wishing well,

And you light me up, when you ring my bell.

You’re a mystery, you’re from outer space,

You’re every minute of my everyday.

And I can’t believe, that I’m your man,

And I get to kiss you baby just because I can.

Whatever comes our way, ah we’ll see it through,

And you know that’s what our love can do.

[Chorus:]

And in this crazy life, and through these crazy times

It’s you, it’s you, You make me sing.

You’re every line, you’re every word, you’re everything.

So, La, La, La, La, La, La, La

So, La, La, La, La, La, La, La

[Chorus:]

And in this crazy life, and through these crazy times

It’s you, it’s you, You make me sing.

You’re every line, you’re every word, you’re everything.

You’re every song, and I sing along.

’Cause you’re my everything.

Yeah, yeah

So, La, La, La, La, La, La, La

So, La, La, La, La, La, La, La, La, La, La, La

Janji, dipagi hari

Tanganku masih saja kemana-mana dan masih berusaha membangunkan dirinya. Tanganku terus saja kemana-mana dan masih terus membuatnya geli dan tak bisa tidur lagi.

Aku merasakan ada sesuatu yang teramat dekat ditelinga.. Terdengar sebuah bisikan lirih tapi jelas terdengar.. “Sayang, janji jangan tinggalin aku yaa!!!”.... balasku segera tanpa menunggu.. “Iya, aku janji”.. Sementara itu tanganku tak kemana-mana, karena ada digenggamannya.. lalu hening untuk beberapa waktu.. “Sayang, kamu juga janji yaa!!”.. “Iya, janji”...

Setelah itu tangan usilku kembali kemana-mana dan benar-benar membuatnya tak ngantuk lagi..

Hitam Putih

putih adalah putih

hitam adalah hitam

hidup adalah hidup

sekalipun putih bukan berarti tidak bisa hitam

sekalipun hitam bukan berarti tidak bisa putih

tingkah orang cermin diri
sifat seumpama warna yang dapat berubah!

“sifat dasar manusia yang tidak pernah merasa puas

atas apa yang sudah diraih,

apa yang sudah dimiliki”...

Kau adalah yang terbaik

dalam kegelisahanku, kau tenangkan aku...

dalam dukaku, kau hibur diriku...

dalam kesukaanku, kau tertawa bersamaku...

kini kutahu seperti apa surga itu...

tempat yang penuh dengan orang-orang...

seperti dirimu...

kau adalah yang terbaik...

yang pernah mengenalku...

bagaimana aku tidak menyayangimu...

Dealova

Dealova - Once (OST Dealova)

Aku ingin menjadi mimpi indah dalam tidurmu

Aku ingin menjadi sesuatu yg mungkin bisa kau rindu

Karena langkah merapuh tanpa dirimu

Oh karena hati tlah letih

Aku ingin menjadi sesuatu yg selalu bisa kau sentuh

Aku ingin kau tahu bahwa ku selalu memujamu

Tanpamu sepinya waktu merantai hati

Oh bayangmu seakan-akan

Kau seperti nyanyian dalam hatiku

Yang memanggil rinduku padamu

Seperti udara yg kuhela kau selalu ada

Hanya dirimu yg bisa membuatku tenang

Tanpa dirimu aku merasa hilang

Dan sepi, dan sepi

Selalu ada, kau selalu ada

Selalu ada, kau selalu ada

HK 070707

Hatiku mengenangkan kamu,

Hatiku terbayangkan kamu,

Jiwaku hanya milikmu,

Jiwaku ingin memilikimu,

Diriku ingin bersama kamu,

Diriku ingin selalu mendampingi kamu,

Kasihku hanya padamu,

Sejak kita bertemu,

Anganku indah bersama kamu,

Mimpiku kita bersatu,

Fantasiku hanya kamu,

Realitiku bersamamu 070707...

SMSmu

Aku tak pernah merasa bosan untuk membaca kembali smsmu karena selalu ada kisah baru hinggap di kepalaku. Selalu ada hal baru saat aku kembali membaca lembar demi lembar dari smsmu. Dan kasih sayangku semakin tak tahu arah.

Membaca satu-satu huruf dari smsmu, jiwaku hanyut dan tenggelam dalam kerinduan yang dalam. Aku terharu dan merasa sangat rindu. Ada banyak kata indah yang tiba-tiba ingin kukirim untukmu, berjuta-juta kata. Hanya untukmu.

Kekasihku, berapa sms lagi yang akan kau kirim dan aku baca untuk membawa kita pada sebuah masa dimana dunia hanya milik berdua? Berapa banyak huruf yang harus kau kirimkan padaku hingga kau benar-benar hadir lagi di sampingku?

Aku tak akan lari meninggalkanmu dan melupakan semua mimpi kita. Yang terjadi adalah sebaliknya. Kasih sayangku makin membara padamu. Bumi boleh terbalik, jaman boleh edan, tapi kasih sayang kita harus tetap berjalan.

Tapi kekasihku, kita tak harus mengalah pada dunia bukan?

Aku menyanyangimu!!!...

Ask me

Ask my eyes to stop looking at you

Ask my brain to stop thinking about you

Ask my imagination to stop dreaming about you

Ask my hands to stop reaching you

Ask my legs to stop walking towards you

Ask my heart to stop beating for you

Ask me everything…

but don’t you ever stop me from LOVING you!!..

Kamu bisa, Aku bisa

Pernikahan adalah gerbang besar menuju cinta abadi. Dimana kamu dan aku menyesuaikan diri. Dimana pelukan dan kecupan adalah selamanya. Saling memberi hingga titik akhir, saling menerima tanpa pernah berakhir.

Sayang.. ikatan kita ini tetap terjalin walau waktu terus menguji. Diantara kasih sayang dan cinta dua hati, indah saling berpegang janji, menunggu bukanlah sehari. Butuh kekuatan, kejujuran dan kehangatan, bahkan ketulusan akan kasih setia. Teruslah selalu begitu, bahagia, damai dan mencinta dalam rasa hingga akhir menutup masa, hingga mata tertutup usia…

Kamu bisa.. aku bisa.. kita mampu.. dan aku tahu itu!!

Kembali Utuh

Seperti bertemu dengan matahari dipagi hari aku merasakan hangatnya sinar dan ceria atas kehadiranmu. Itulah yang kurasakan dihati dan itulah membuatku selalu optimis didalam kehidupan bersamamu.

Harapan yang pernah hilang kini hadir kembali. Semangat yang remuk kini bersatu lagi karena telah kutemukan pecahan yang hilang dalam hidupku. Kini lengkap sudah semangatku. Semua ini karena kehadiranmu.

Kau membuatku.....utuh....

We Are One

The lights are out, a candle flickers nearby casting shadows on the wall, and we are once again nestled in each other’s care.

I love intimacy. I love being close to you, as close as possible without touching you, making you want me to come just a little closer. I love it when you want me so much you can’t stand it anymore and you reach out and pull me to you. I love feeling the depth of your desire as it meets my own. I love the smell of you and the smell of me and the smell of us together.

When I touch you, I love your response. I love feeling your pleasure in what I give. I love how your pleasure becomes my own. When you respond to my body taking pleasure in yours, you are giving me the gift of feeling the pleasure of my own. When I feel your response to my touch I become the gift, the giver and the receiver all in one and there is no distinction of who is giving and who is receiving. This is our gift to each other.

We hold each other and in our holding we are one, comforter and comforted, by and to each other. We are one…

Video Music to watch: We are One (sung by Kelly Sweet)

Bisikan kata-katamu

Sayang, diluar sana hujan mengguyur sejak siang hingga di tengah malam buta ini. Pikiranku sepenuhnya tertuju kepadamu. Dalam kesunyian malam yang biasa, dalam kesendirian yang sama, aku membuka lagi lembar demi lembar percakapan kita. Mencumbu setiap kata-katamu. Entah untuk keberapa kalinya aku melakukan itu, memeluk bayanganmu seolah-olah aku telah benar benar memeluk dirimu seutuhnya.

Bagiku kata-katamu adalah cahaya bintang yang tak pernah padam, sebab ia telah menjadi untaian janji antara kita untuk selalu bersama selamanya. Setiap kata dan segalanya darimu bagiku adalah abadi, dan aku juga tahu semua itu datang dari seluruh sudut sudut jiwamu yang paling dalam.

Seperti bisikanmu yang ku dengar nyata : “Aku sayang kamu” ...

Dunia Maya, Dunia Nyata

Kejadian di dunia nyata bisa terbawa ke dunia maya dan kejadian di dunia maya bisa terbawa ke dunia nyata. Emosi yang diciptakan di dunia maya bisa menjadi emosi yang nyata di dunia nyata. Terutama jika kita sudah mempercayai lawan bicara kita di dunia maya.

Kau masih ingat sayang? Bagaimana saat pertama kali aku mengenalmu.

Masihkah kau ingat dialog itu, sayang? Aku tak pernah melupakannya sampai sekarang. Dari sanalah aku menemukan keindahanmu. Sejak kasih sayangmu yang menenangkan hatiku, aku menyadari, tanpamu jiwaku tak menjelma apapun. Ragaku hanya bongkahan tanpa makna.

Aku akan masuk ke rumah kita. Aku rindu belai tanganmu saat memandikan aku dengan air yang kau siapkan jauh sebelum kedatanganku. Aku bahagia dalam tidur bersamamu, sebab engkau tak pernah melupakan bunga-bunga surga yang kau kirim kedalam mimpiku.

Jujur sayang, hanya denganmu aku bahagia. Dekap aku selamanya! Jangan tinggalkan aku. Aku tak ingin kau meninggalkanku setelah sekian lama kau biarkan aku membelai jiwamu dengan kata-kata puisi. Setelah kau biarkan aku mengecup bibir rindumu. Setelah kau biarkan aku menyetubuhi malam-malammu.

Biarkan aku tetap menjadi milikmu. Sebab aku, amat menyanyangimu!...

Untukmu, Untukku

Kata-kata telah habis kutumpahkan untukmu. Kini hanya tinggal pembuktian, bahwa kata-kata bisa mewujud menjadi kenyataan. Dengan kekuatan yang aku miliki, dengan keterbatasan yang akan menghalangi. Aku akan mewujudkan mimpimu.

Tersenyumlah sayang!

Sebab esok, adalah hari bahagia untukmu! Untukku!

A Pillow Way

She was looking for someone who can move her..
but he did more than that..
He has shaken her world upside down.
He makes every ordinary day unexpectedly complete.

She was the sweetest kind of chaos.
He lives with no excuses.
She loves with no regrets.
Everyday she makes the longest journey from her head to her heart.

The night was always too long without him and the day was too fast.
There is no moment she doesn’t ache for his scent
His presence gives her butterflies.
Just even thinking of his touch is like bliss en route to her spine.
Each moment is like a favorite song, everyday like a dance.

Somewhere there is a secret sky
Where they would actually touch.
One day out of darkness they shall meet
And read life’s meanings in their eyes.
They would just be a pillow away…

Taking a step without feet… in time…

Destination Calabria (Tujuan Tak Dikenal)

Sayang, ketika suaramu mengalun di telingaku adalah debar yang tak kutahu.
Entah darimana datangnya hingga aku tak sanggup menahan gemuruhnya, mengguncang seluruh persendianku, ototku dan jiwaku!

Seribu kata telah kusiapkan terbang entah kemana, tapi aku bahagia. Awal rasa bahagia untuk selamanya. Kasih sayang telah membuktikan dirinya, begitu hebatnya, begitu misterinya, begitu indahnya! Entah kenapa...

Sayang, apakah kau merasakan yang sama?

Destination calabria

(Videoclip: Alex Gaudino ft Crystal Waters)

Destination unknown (known known known known known)
(instrumental....)

I left my job, my boss, my car and my home,
I’m leaving for a destination I still don’t know
Somewhere nobody must have duties at all.
And if you like this you can follow me so let’s go,

Follow me and let’s go
To the place where we belong
And leave our troubles at home
Come with me we can go
To a paradise of love and joy,
A destination unknown.

Now I won’t feel those heavy shoulders nomore
my life got better now I finally enjoy
yes all the people wanna come here and so...?
come on and join us you can do that now let’s go

Follow me and let’s go
To the place where we belong
And leave our troubles at home
Come with me we can go
To a paradise of love and joy,
A destination unknown (known known known known unknown.)

Destination unknown.
(instrumental....)

Destination unknown (unknown)
Destination unknown

Follow me and let’s go
Destination unknown
(Repeat 2x)

Follow me and let’s go
To the place where we belong
And leave our troubles at home
Come with me we can go
To a paradise of love and joy,
A destination unknown.

Pelukmu dan pelukku

Kali ini aku kembali melamunkanmu. Entah yang keberapa kali, mungkin yang keseratus, keseribu, atau kesejuta kalinya. Matamu, senyummu, tawamu, suaramu melintas, berputar-putar, menari-nari di depanku. Kadang-kadang semua itu ikut berbaring di tempat tidurku sebab aku merasakannya. Merasakan engkaulah hangat itu, engkaulah yang membelai dengan mimpi indah itu, engkaulah yang memberi kecupan-kecupan lembut itu. Aku sadar dan menikmati semua itu.

Saat ini kita sama-sama berlari, sebab dengan sadar aku mendengar langkah-langkahmu itu. Langkahmu menujuku, dan apakah engkau mendengar langkah-langkahku kekasih? Aku yang berlari ke arahmu hingga nanti dua peluk itu akan menjadi satu. Pelukmu dan pelukku...

Jarak

Menghukum kita, sayang?

Salah apa kita terhadap waktu, terhadap jarak dan terhadap usia?Adakah kesalahan yang telah kita buat? Bukankah kita hanya ingin mencinta? Berbagi kisah bersama? Menguntai cerita? Kenapa kita yang harus dihukumnya? Kenapa?

Jarak ini memang jahat, teramat jahat.

Tapi sayang… bisakah jarak kita rubah menjadi bukan lagi sesuatu yang menyakitkan? Menjadi sesuatu yang membahagiakan. Kita kalahkan jarak, sayang. Biarkan dia menyakiti kita. Tapi kita bahagia atas itu semua. Bisakah kekasihku? Aku yakin engkau bisa. Dan aku yakin, engkau juga lebih bisa membawaku, membawa jarak ini pada sesuatu yang membahagiakan, bukan menyakitkan.

Aku akan menunggumu membawaku merubah jarak ini!!!

My Beloved Mother

This is dedicated to my wonderful mother, who left this world at the age of 76. It was more than 40 days ago this April. My mother was elegant and sophisticated, extremely fashionable, bright and beautiful with a sweet softness about her. She was very outgoing and had lots of friends. She loved the ocean and always dreamed of living in Indonesia with an ocean view. Her favorite hobbies were gardening, cooking and dancing. She was an amazing woman.

My mother was delighted to be such a grandmother! She loved taking her great-grandchildren to her home for visits and spoiled him with candies, toys, stuffed animals and clothes.

My life has never been the same without you. You made everything so special and so elaborate! I have inherited your ways of doing things like that... it makes me feel as if you are still with me.

I remember before I was going to Asia for a business trip, she said to me from her sickbed at the hospital …“John, every night make sure that you look up at the moon. No matter where you are or how far away you go, we will always be looking at that same moon… And I’ll be thinking of you”… That meant something very special to me. I will never forget you telling me that and still, every time I look up at the moon I think of you, and I wonder if you can see the moon where ever you are.

What a lovely person she was and how lucky I was to have had her in my life. I only wish I could have had her forever. She left this world far to soon. She had so much to offer. I know deep within me that I have a very special angel watching over me.

Those were wonderful memories that will stay with me for the rest of my life…

Resep Cinta

RESEP MASAKAN CINTA

Bahan:

1 pria sehat,

1 wanita sehat,

100% Komitmen,

2 pasang doa restu orang tua,

1 botol kasih sayang murni.

Bumbu:

1 balok besar humor,

25 gram rekreasi,

1 bungkus doa,

2 sendok teh telpon-telponan,

Semuanya diaduk hingga merata dan mengembang.

Tips:

Pilih pria dan wanita yang benar-benar matang dan seimbang.

- Jangan yang satu terlalu tua dan yang lainnya terlalu muda karena dapat mempengaruhi kelezatan.

- Jangan beli di pasar yang bernama DISKOTIK atau PARTY karena walaupun modelnya bagus dan harum baunya tapi kadang menipu konsumen atau kadang menggunakan zat pewarna yang bisa merusak kesehatan.

- Gunakan Kasih sayang cap “IMAN, HARAP & KASIH” yang telah mendapatkan penghargaan ISO dari Departemen Kesehatan dan Kerohanian.

Cara Memasak:

- Pria dan Wanita dicuci bersih, buang semua masa lalunya sehingga tersisa niat yang murni.

- Siapkan loyang yang telah diolesi dengan komitmen dan restu orang tua secara merata.

- Masukkan niat yang murni ke dalam loyang dan panggang dengan api cinta, merata sekitar 30 menit di depan penghulu atau pendeta.

- Biarkan di dalam loyang tadi dan sirami dengan semua bumbu di atas.

- Kue siap dinikmati.

Catatan:

Kue ini dapat dinikmati oleh pembuatnya seumur hidup dan paling enak dinikmati dalam keadaan kasih yang hangat. Tapi kalau sudah agak dingin, tambahkan lagi humor segar secukupnya, rekreasi sesuai selera, serta beberapa potong doa kemudian dihangatkan lagi di oven bermerek "Tempat Ibadah" diatas api cinta.

Setelah mulai hangat, jangan lupa telepon-teleponan bila berjauhan.

From Sarah With Love

She’s fragile, she’s hurt, she’s already got enough painful memories
Don’t use her, don’t leave her with all those painful memories
Don’t tell her you love her when really you don’t even want her
Don’t tell her you love her unless you’re gonna stay around even when the going gets tough

So maybe the chance for romance is like a train to catch before it’s gone and I’ll keep on waiting and dreaming you’re strong enough to understand as long as you’re so far away I’m sending a letter each day... From Sarah With Love

>From Sarah With Love
(Sung by Sarah Connor)

[Verse 1:]

For so many years we were friends

And yes I always knew what we could do

But so many tears in the rain

Felt the night you said

That love had come to you

I thought you were not my kind

I thought that I could never feel for you

The passion and love you were feeling

And so you left
For someone new

And now that you’re far and away
I’m sending a letter today

[Chorus:]

From Sarah with love

She’d got the lover she is dreaming of

She never found the words to say

But I know that today

She’s gonna send her letter to you

From Sarah with love

She took your picture to the stars above

And they told her it is true

She could dare to fall in love with you

So don’t make her blue when she writes to you

From Sarah with love

[Verse 2:]

So maybe the chance for romance

Is like a train to catch before it’s gone

And I’ll keep on waiting and dreaming

You’re strong enough

To understand

As long as you’re so far away

I’m sending a letter each day

[Chorus]

[Last chorus:]

From Sarah with love

She’d got the lover she is dreaming of

She never found the words to say

But I know that today

She’s gonna send her letter to you

From Sarah with love

She’s gotta know what you are thinking of

’Cause every little now and then

And again and again

I know her heart cries out for you

From Sarah with love

She’d got the lover she is dreaming of

Never found the words to say, ahh

But today, but today...

From Sarah with love

She took your picture to the stars above

And they told her it is true

She could dare to fall in love with you

So don’t make her blue when she writes to you

From Sarah with love

[Coda:]

So don’t make me blue when I write to you

From Sarah with love...

Pelangi

Sore hari, disebuah jalanan yang padat, hujan turun rintik. Sementara matahari sore masih bersinar terang. Di saat-saat seperti ini, alam menghadiahkan pemandangan yang indah untuk kita? Saat butir-butir air membiaskan spektrum-spektrum cahaya, merangkai membentuk lengkungan warna-warni alam.

Pelangi? Dimanakah kau pelangi? Ingin aku melihat pelangi lagi setelah entah kapan terakhir menyaksikannya. Seharusnya ia ada di sebelah kiri jalan ini, karena matahari ada di kanan. Namun dimanakah kau bersembunyi?

Ah, pelangi. Kuingin melihat pelangi...

Matahari mulai menghilang. Aku masih berada dijalanan yang sama, dengan kemacetan yang sama…


Berbicara tentang pelangi, kuingat kata-kata seseorang:
“Buatkan aku dua lukisan cat air. Satu lukisan warna-warni pelangi. Satu lagi lukisan kusamnya campuran seluruh warna. Akan kupajang keduanya berdampingan. Ini untuk selalu mengingatkanku bahwa hidup bagaikan warna-warni sekotak cat air. Kita yang menentukan bagaimana lukisan dari warna-warni itu. Kalau kita menata warna-warni tersebut dengan baik, akan tercipta indahnya pelangi. Kalau kita mengkacaukannya, mencampur-adukkan semua, yang ada hanyalah warna suram kecoklatan.”

~~~

Gak peduli

Cinta itu gak mengenal bentuk dan waktu, terkadang dia datangnya waktu aku gak pengen dia datang. Cinta itu terkadang nyenengin banget, bisa ngelakuin segalanya, tapi lebih sering nyakitin. Tetap saja cinta adalah cinta…

Malam sudah larut sekali dan mungkin gak banyak orang yang masih menjaga jarak antara bulu mata atas dan bawah. Dengar lagu dari John Legend mengalun indah. Judulnya “PDA (We Just Don’t Care)”. Tentang keberanian menunjukkan cinta di muka umum. Dengar saja liriknya yang berbunyi:

“Let’s go to the park
I wanna kiss you underneath the stars

Maybe we’ll go too far

We just don’t care, we just don’t care, we just don’t care”…

Sambil bayangin... kayaknya asyik juga ciuman di tengah taman di bawah sinar bulan purnama. Gak peduli sama kabut pikiran orang yang mikir macam-macam dari aku dengan dia. Toh mereka gak bisa ngebedain yang aku aku alamin dengan dia. Biar semua orang tau kalau aku cinta dia. Biar jadi bahan omongan juga gak papa. Aku bangga jadi kekasihmu...

I don’t care what people say, just follow my own way..


PDA (We Just Don’t Care)
(sung by John Legend)

Let’s go to the park

I wanna kiss you underneath the stars
Maybe we’ll go too far

We just don’t care

We just don’t care

We just don’t care

You know I love it when you’re loving me

But sometimes it’s better when it’s publicly

I’m not ashamed, I don’t care who sees

us hugging and kissing, a love exibition, oh

We’ll rendezvous out on the fire escape

I’d like to set off an alarm today

A love emergency don’t make me wait

Just follow, I’ll lead you

I urgently need you

Let’s go to the park

I wanna kiss you underneath the stars

Maybe we’l go too far

We just don’t care

We just don’t care

We just don’t care

Let’s make love,

let’s go somewhere they might discover us

Let’s get lost in lust

We just don’t care

We just don’t care

We just don’t care

I see you’re closing down the restaurant

Let’s sneak and do it when your boss is gone

Everybody’s leaving, we’ll have some fun

Oh, maybe it’s wrong, but you’re turnin’ me on

Oh, we’ll take a visit to your mama’s house

Creep to the bedroom while your mama’s out

Maybe she’ll hear it when we scream and shout,

but we’ll keep it rockin’ until she comes knockin’

Let’s go to the park

I wanna kiss you underneath the stars

Maybe we’ll go too far

We just don’t care

We just don’t care

We just don’t care

Let’s make love,

let’s go somewhere they might discover us

Let’s get lost in lust

We just don’t care

We just don’t care

We just don’t care

If we keep up all this foolin’ around

We’ll be the talk of the town

I’ll tell the world of our love any time

Let’s open the blinds’

Cause we really don’t mind

Oh I don’t care about propriety

Let’s break the rules ignore society

Maybe your neighbors like to spy it’s true

So what if they watch, when we do what we do, ohhh

Let’s go to the park

I wanna kiss you underneath the stars

Maybe we’ll go too far

We just don’t care

We just don’t care

We just don’t…

Let’s make love,

let’s go somewhere they might discover us

Let’s get lost in lust…